Chambers Family

Happy New Year !!!!
My goal this year is to take of me. Boy does that sound selfish. I just can't seem to feel good about such a selfish statement.
People say all the time you need to take care of YOU. I always feel like I need to take care of others ,but now there is no one to take care of.
My children are all adults and should not need my care and when I do care it is taken as being in their business. I should say my care of others is not wanted.
For a couple of my children my care is misunderstood .
So I will try every day to separate my self from them . Which feels like my heart is being ripped from me.
Some day they when I am gone maybe then they will understand the love I have from them. Maybe they will come to understand that I only wanted them to pass the love to others . Isn't that our job to pass to generation to generation to love and respect others. I really feel like I have failed on the one statement . And now my love for them has back fired, I loved them so much that I think I failed to "teach"
So from this day forward I will try and try every day to separate my self and maybe they will learn on their own because not that they are adults they can't learn from me they will learn from life